The Eyes Have It

 I have been in a love hate relationship with my eyes over the past several years.  While living in China I developed severe dry eyes.  I've had so many things done to my eyes and seen so many different specialists in an attempt to help get them up and running again.  I have so many crazy things I have to do in order to just keep them functional.  Gels, drops, eye masks, special cleansers and an abundance of medications.  We are getting there in terms of improvement but it has been with a lot of trial and error.  

I've found my diet hugely affects things.  When I made the decision to cut out sugars (a definitely struggle for me) and carbs I not only lost weight but I saw a LOT of metabolic improvement.  My dry eye specialist has attributed my improvement to flipping my metabolic switch.  I have to say I agree.  I have had so many little health things improve with that strict regimen.  I am keeping after it in an attempt to not have to suffer from eyes that are glued shut when I wake up in the morning.  I had a severe adhesion at one point that required a special lens inserted into my eye to heal the torn cornea after not being able to open my eyes in the morning.  It was brrruuuutal!  Thankfully we've made progress.

I do also have floaters.  I am talking crazy floaters.  There are black spots and lines floaters and then there are big blurry spot floaters.  I have been given the distinct honor of having them both at the same time.  Currently wearing prescription sunglasses is when I see them the least.  I have perfect vision right now except for the floaters being so prominent that I cannot see through them.  I have a special lens in my glasses on one side that helps me see through the floaters.  Originally I was going to have them lasered last month but my doctor decided to wait since I'm also developing a lovely cataract.  We will wait until that cataract is also ready to be operated on and hit them both at the same time to avoid a double surgery.  UGH and AHH.  I didn't want the surgery but was hoping to see normal again.  Patience my friend.  I just gotta be patient.  I'm no good at patient.  

Here is what they look like if you were to see them.  I see both a cobweb black spider and bouncing floating clear blurry spots.  It's a regular crazy show from my eyes.  

I have the black spider look and this pic above that is a big blur spot.  I always tell my husband he still looks amazing to me....just with a blur and squiggly lines bouncing around his blue eyes! :)

Patience is so important in life.  I want these things (and many other pesky annoyances in life) gone now.  But God has given me this ailment for this season.  He knows what I need even before I ask.  I'm asking for this to be resolved and not get worse.  I know that God will give me just what I need when I need it.  For now.....patience.  <---gotta get better at this.